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Life, Ministry and Lots of Laundry

Life, Ministry and Lots of Laundry

I've asked a friend of mine, Lyndsy Flanagan, to share her heart. This lady has an incredible testimony, has traveled the world in ministry (we got to travel together a few of those years), has founded a very special work for women called "Unmask" and is currently serving alongside her husband, Ryon. Take a look at her life and future posts here

Balance. That’s what I was told I would need to know how to do, and well. After all, if we can be honest, I feel like a failed juggler on most days. I have mom duties, wife duties, house duties, work duties, ministry duties, and the list goes on. Sometimes I’m not even sure how it all gets done. Every time I think I have one thing under control I realize I have five things falling apart at the same time. I find out every day that my standard of perfection has to be tweaked in order to stay sane and feel accomplished instead of defeated. Lately my hair has been on top of my head in a bun 6 out of 7 days a week. In my defense, it takes what it seems like two years to blow dry and straighten this mess. Starbucks has become a bill racking in a good 20$ a week for my tall iced non-fat vanilla iced coffee that helps me to survive. I get non-fat so I can then eat my calories in chick-fil- a and pizza since I only cook about twice a week.

Every now and then I will think wouldn’t it be easier to just not have a “Call on my life”? Play it safe and make a career, buy a home and have babies. If I only had to worry about work and my family, It seems as if life would be just a little easier. The truth is while that thought may come for just a moment my biggest fear in life is not accomplishing what God has set us out to do. The truth is that there is no greater joy than watching women find their identity in Christ through Unmask. Is it hard to bring my one year old to church at 8:45 every Sunday to sit through two services while leading worship? Absolutely! By 1pm almost every Sunday Journee is in tears and so am I as I rush him home to take a quick nap before the Sunday Night Youth Service. I wish I could say they were tears of joy or the getting touched by Jesus. I know that the ministry life isn’t for everyone, but it’s what God has called my husband and me to do. Even in the midst of the hardest days when I feel like a complete failure as a mom, wife, or pastor, I realize this amazing grace that God extends to me each day to be able to pull through.

The hardest days are when I find myself trying to do things in my own strength. It leaves me feeling guilty, tired, and frustrated. I see women every day laying down their dreams because they feel the load is too much. When things require us to work hard it can be easy to quit, or neglect our passions in the name of “seasons”. It’s hard to see what it seems like these women who have these incredibly easy lives on social media and if I am not careful I will find myself comparing. How does one keep a clean home, make organic food, work a job, remain a size 4, serve in their church and have three kids and update their social media frequently? If you find out please message me! Sometimes I just want to tell women

-          I ate chick-fil-a for two meals today

-          I don’t have a baby sitter and I am in tears because I don’t have help

-          I bring my exhausted kid to work with me some days and give him suckers to stay  happy as I attempt to make it through a staff meeting

-          I haven’t washed my hair in three days

-          I forgot to check planning center and I had no idea what songs I was singing on Sunday

This is my current reality! No one’s life is perfect. My mom isn’t in Ohio to babysit for me every week, and I will probably never be a good cook. BUT STILL I SAY YES! You don’t have to be perfect to be used by God. You don’t have to wait until your life slows down to do what you’re called to do!

2 Corinthians 12:9-11
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. “Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest upon me. That is why for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

I love when my son Journee needs me! It’s the most amazing feeling when he comes over and pulls on my hand to help him. I love running to his rescue in the middle of the night when he cries for “Momma”. (Well, sometimes ha-ha) It’s ok Mommas to need God to get through your day! It’s ok to not know how doing something or not know how you’re going to make it! Let God be your strength. Let go of your dreams of having an Instagram worthy day, and learn to love your life so much that you don’t need to pick up your phone. My mission is moving forward is to not strive for perfection but to work hard with the things God has given me. I hope this helps a Mom out there who is struggling today.